Pam’s Blog

So this week I went back to the gym after for the first time after my ankle/foot/leg surgery. 

As per my doctor and physical therapists orders I am taking things nice and slow. I am only doing weight machines that involve my upper body – mostly arms and abs. I am walking – very slowly – on the treadmill and I am riding the exercise bike. 

It isn’t much – but I have to say it feels good to move again.

My goal is to get to the gym 4 times a week between now and when we leave for MD.  Then again when we get home.  If I can go to the gym when we get home. 

If we make one set of decisions the gym will be nothing but a memory.

I have to admit I am a little nervous about the future right now. I have no idea what is going to happen and if I think about it too much I get really, well,  I’m not sure what the right word is.   But I hope that Jason and I will have wisdom to make the right decision. 

God I’m scared.  Yeah that’s the word I’m looking for – scared…..

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In thirty days we are going to Maryland – just the kids and I – Jason will be taking a pass on this trip.  He doesn’t really have enough leave from work yet and airline tickets are pricey.

I am very excited – there is so much cool stuff going on while we are visiting.  I am going to get to go to the ocean and eat crabs and see my grandmother. 

I’m a little nervous too though about three weeks alone with the kids, and I seriously expect I am going to come home exhausted and totally ready for school to start…with over a month before it does.

I also suspect I am going to be desperate to see Jason by the time we get home.  This will be the longest I have been away from him since we got married 14 years ago.  I have to admit I am bummed he isn’t coming. I really thought that he would be able to come for a week while we are there and I was really looking forward to hanging out with all our friends together and visiting his family with him.

Had I known he really wouldn’t be able to come I probably would only have planned to stay 10 to 14 days instead of 21, but I thought that he would be with us for a week of it.  The idea of being alone with the kids for 21 days is intimidating.  The idea of being without my best friend for 21 days is terrifying. 

At the same time – I am so excited to see all my friends and family in MD.  There are so many people I want to spend time with and so much I want to do while we are there.  Three weeks hardly seems like enough time.

Anyway 30 days to go and we will be in MD – YAY!!!

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